true_down

So I haven't posted in a year and a month or so. Here is a quick update

-Observing and helping with Box Office for "Private Lives" opening this weekend
-President of Treblelicious (girl's acappella group)
-In "A Christmas Carol"
-Education club
-Theatre club
-Kappa Delta Pi (Education honor's society)
-babysitting (my way of $)
-19 credits
-lack of sleep (which I can't do unfortunately like some people)
-Relay for Life Team Captain
-Student Teaching :)

That's all I can think of at the moment but it's still a lot. I'm in Stage Management class right now which isn't bad but still time consuming and good info. Miss everyone :)

~CC

So I have been doing so much homework and getting so much done. Although I haven't done any workouts this week, I got done what I needed to.
I was originally on wardrobe crew for a show at salisbury but I couldnt be that position because I have a Thursday night class that interfered with performances...so now I am a stagehand that needs to find someone to do her stuff when she gets there late bc of class. but yay!
I am having some really weird dreams. Not going into detail, but I'm kinda worried. *end scene*

So I am officially not a teenager anymore. Today is more productive than I thought it was going to be, unfortunately. Lauren and I went to wal Mart last night and stocked up on a few of my fave junk foods since we don't eat them anymore...I got double stuff oreos, a thing of icing, gummy bears, reeses, cookies and cream pop tarts, marshmallows (that we will roast tonight), oatmeal cream pies, ice cream, and a few other things. We also had cinnamon rolls for breakfast and just made punpkin and cream cheese bars bc we felt like baking. They just got out of the oven and look great! So today should be chill and this weekend should be good.

I don't even know what else to say aside from life is pretty good :)

Ok so first off, classes.
Reading and Language Arts Instruction. They really are two different classes but these two teachers have worked together and combined them for years, and I am very lucky I have them. They are both very nice and apparently the guy is retiring after this semester. It may be a bit of work but I know I will learn a lot.

Wednessay is my 9:30-4:45 straight with no breaks day (John I feel your pain)
Morning is Reading and Language arts instruction, then computers in education. This will be fairly boring just because the teacher talks slow and the first class was very basic for me, even though some ppl were having trouble which was fine, but I got bored. It will be interesting, but long And the teacher is really nice too :)

Thursday I have early childhood development, the teacher is absolutely amazing. She has taught kindergarten for 30 some years and I just want to graduate and turn into her. She is vey nice and this will be like other early childhood classes I've taken where there are a lot of projects and lessons and observations involved, but oh my goodness partially bc of the teacher, I will learn so much. This will definitely be my most time consuming classes.

So I love all of those classes, and it gets even better.

Intro to theatre (for my minor)...I h ave an insanely cool teacher who I have just chilled with during his office hours a couple times and we just talked about the theatre world and I learned a lot. Honestly, I would love to be a theatre major, but I definitely could not live without my kids. Love both way too much. I am working on costumes for one of the Salisbury shows since we need 'lab' hours for the intro class. I've already met the costume guy and might be taking his class next semester...I'm so excited it's crazy.

The other class that I'm doing for fun is Musical Theatre Workshop. We are doing a variety show thing with a bunch of songs from musicals (this semester the theme is famous duo's...Roger and Hammerstein, Gershwin bros, etc.) and auditions are on Monday. I am already in the show since I am in the class but we stsill have to audition for if we get a solo, blah, blah, blah, etc. I have met with my teacher to get an opinion on what piece I should do also...So yay.

I am also already ahead on homework *gasp*. I have just been reading my ass off so I am hoping since next week is my bday weekend and lost since I will be doing nothing that I can work ahead so I don't fall behind. We'll see.

I am really excited for this semester...I just hope everything keeps going well.

So with the whole roomate deal, things have been up and down. I had a problem with something, so I told her, and I got bitched out, what a surprise. Other than that things have been ok. I'm so confused!! Point being, if she gets like this every time we have a long break from school, she can find her own roomate for next year. grrr. i still love her to death, but ugh. this is just frustrating.

So school starts tomorrow. I already got a syllabus from my theatre teacher saying we have to do 30 'lab' hours and an assload of reading in this class. And I discovered that I think I'm missing a book. Shit. Well I guess I'll find out the hardway. This guy is gonna be a jerk, I can tell by his 'professor's philosophy'. So I'll do what I always do and attempt to get on their good side in the beginning. *sigh*

I got an email from one of my other teachers about parking on campus bc their is opening ceremony for the new building they same time we have class...she seems nice. Hopefully she is that way in person too.

Excited, but busy.

So I've been having a really bad past few days with the roomate, and I'm hoping things get better. So once again, I'll talk about the positive things to try to keep my mood as best as possible.

Because of the whole roomate deal, I changed my status to 'I'm highly irked but hope things get better', then 'trying so hard to stay positive and look at the bright side'. Of course I talked to my friend Julie and vented because that's what me and her do for each other. But then my choreographer from jesus christ superstar messaged me and asked what was wrong? so we talked about it for a bit which really helped. I just didn't expect her to ask what was wrong and it just made me smile because she actually did. I'm not saying it's a bad thing if ppl don't ask, but yeah...the concept.

...still trying to stay positive.

So, today was my first day of babysitting this one family that I found through Salisbury U. The girl is 9 and boy is 7, and the girl kinda reminded me of me in some ways when I was her age. I was insanely talkative about the most random things and always went into unnecessary detail, just like her. They were both good when they were with me, but once mom and dad got back home they were little monsters again. As long as they are nice to me, I'm good to go even though I think they should be nicer. W/e. Hopefully they will call me again :) The kids were nerdy, but easy to deal with since they were older.

Other than that, I have had some very productive past few days. I just feel very accomplished, so hopefully this will stay for when school starts and I will be just as productive. *crosses fingers*

yay for making some money :)

So this past month has been one big tornado of emotions. I have worked a lot, moved into my apartment, spent way too much money, and having a great time. I've been chilling with Lauren, eating healthy, got more tan, unpacked and cleaned the apartment, remembered to take all my meds, I've been doing my knee and back exercises and I have made motivation to break some bad habits (they are not that bad, just stuff that I want to stop doing). I can sy for what I think is the fist time in years, I am happy. Lauren and I have watched the olympics every night and just chilled and had fun. I found a family to visit for possibly babysitting, and they will recommend to their neighbors. Even though I just spent a billion $ on textbooks and I did not like the feeling of walking around campus with a backpack full of books, I am pretty happy.

Lauren and I watched 21, I liked that movie. We also just finished watching the Bank Job. That is also a good movie. I wish I had time to watch movies and update on lj and just do nothing more often.

So I'll give a summary...

Three weeks ago Lauren and I went to Salsibury with our moms and her dad with a ton of boxes and some small furniture to start moving things and Lauren and I would stay the weekend. So once we sign the papers and get the keys, Lauren and I go up to our apartment and open the door, oober excited, and there are black spots all over the carpet and the place smells like smoke and no one could ever live there in those conditions. So we make some phone calls and leave our stuff in the bathroom and kitchen (where there isn't carpet that needs to be cleaned), and we don't stay the night unfortunately).

Last weekend, Lauren's parents and brother along with me and my mom took up a moving truck with everything else and we moved in :) I got my room set up aside from the stuff I still have here in HoCo but I came back for my last week of work while Lauren has been at the apartment all week chillin by her lonesome. So I am leaving this coming Monday and I am SOOOO excited!!! So if anyone comes to Ocean City, let me know, I'm half an hour away :)

Life is tiring, but good. I have been cleaning and packing a lot and dealing with work, but w/e. I just can't wait to leave!

Ok, so everyone on lj is talking about, all of my kids at work are talking about it. I can't get away from Wall-e! I wanna just see the damn movie. Usually everyone is just like yea w/e another kids movie, but no. Even my kids are like "OMG Ms. Crista you have to go see it!" Some of them want us to take a field trip, some of them said "I'll ask my mom if we can take you this weekend" which was like the cutest thing ever...but yeah I need to get up with this and go see the damn movie already.

So yeah, I am beyond excited to just move out of my freakin home already. Yay for apartments, yay for awesome roomates like Lauren, boo for having to pack messy room in many boxes, and yay for full time jobs (mainly the paychecks). I so give up on everything else.

P.S., I'm insanely happy with my 2 new dr's I'm seeing. Hopefully everything continues to work out. Id on't like that my insurance doesn't cover one of them and that they are both in towson, but I'm still glad they are awesome :)

So LAuren (roomate next year) and I left for Salisbury today at 5 30 am to get to orientation on time...ended up getting there just on time (oh our adventures caused by crazy conversations), and I got lost on campus once...heaven forbid I remember that I have a map (10 minutes after I'm walking around in the quad for the hell of it).

So, life is pretty good. Here is my schedule for fall semester:

Monday: Language Arts Instruction-11:00-12:15
Musical Theatre Workshop 3:30-4:15

Tuesday: Reading Instruction- 9:30-10:45
Intro. to theatre-11:00-12:15

Wednesday: Language Arts Instruction-11:00-12:15
Computers in Education-12:30-3:15

Thursday: Reading Instruction-9:30-10:45
Intro. to theatre-11:00-12:15
Development of the Young Child-5:30-8:15 (I'm pissed...it was the only time that was available but oh well)

No classes Friday! Which works perfectly so I can come home once a month for Dr. appointments (which sucks, but it really needs to be done).

Overall I like my schedule. That is 17 credits which I hope I don't burn myself out again, but we'll see what happens. I can't wait to move out!! 2 more weeks and the appartment is ours :D

I am absolutely exhausted.

And by the way, I dislike anything with a Y chromosome (that should cover everything)

Ok some negative things this time...
-I need to relax at work, in the same position as I was in last year I have improved a lot in my opinion though.
-I hate boys
-I am seeing 10 doctors at the moment. Whenever I go see one for a certain problem, they always say "Oh I can reccomend this person you can see that and they can help you also", so whenever I go see a new doctor which has been once or twice a month for the past couple months, I see one or two new doctors after that. ugh. I hate being broken.
-I feel like I'm doing a good chunk of my boss' job. I know I'm 'helping' a lot, and I am no where near being a supervisor, but I have worked at this place for 6 years (no wonder I'm so mentally screwed), and I know pretty much everything. She is new for this program, so I'm fine with helping but still.
-I hate boys.

**disclaimer-boys, don't take offense, I'm really talking about certain people that will remain nameless**

Good things that I really need to think about more:
-One of these doctors will teach me de-stressing techniques that will help me at work, in general, and will help me sleep better. I can't wait (no sarcasm, I would LOVe to get a full night's sleep more than once a month).
-I'm moving in just over a month.
-I'm going to Salisbury with Lauren for registration on Friday!!
-I love my job...not necessarily everything abut it, but I love working with kids.
-I feel incredibly lucky that I love what I do (most of the time).


I'm sure there are a many other things, but I just want to attempt to go to sleep.

So I am still horribly depressed, but I am going to talk of positive things...

-Work is going well (usually by now I want to kill all of my kids, I only want to kill a few though)
-I get to go on the Camden Yards field trip...for free...next week (only 2nd-5th grade is going but I'm usually with Pre-K through 1st, my boss let me switch for the day!)
-I get a nice raise in effect on june 15th.
-Registration for Salisbury is June 27th=road trip with lauren!
-I am going to Ryan's grad party tomorrow (not a Hammond kid, just throwin that out there) and it should be really fun.
-I haven't gotten sick yet even though I haven't really slept much for the past few weeks.
-I hung out with Michelle the other night and it was awesome.
- I am going to Rita's tonight with Sarah and Lauren (neighbors) who I haven't seen in a while so that should be fun
-I have a roof over my head, clothes to wear, medical and dental insurance, food, and many other things to be thankful for that I don't think about enough.

Ok so in physical therapy on friday my current physical therapist was talking to one her friends who is a pt and i have also worked with before and they were talking about me and my slow improvements, and my old therapist taught some new technique that my current therapist tried on me, and it helped sooo much! It was a kind of painful process, but it ended up helping a lot and I am sore, but I just have to keep stretching and such. I may actually be able to try out for the tennis team next year at Salisbury or do intermurals at least if I don't make it, but the fact that I can do something is amazing!! I just have to keep doing my strengthening exercises and I'll be good :) I can't wait!!

Tonight I am spending the night at Jackie's with Michelle and Julie for our ever popular Double T night. I am sooooo psyched and am trying to stay awake until 5:30. I probably will, but we'll see what happens. HAve a great weekend everyone :)

Ok skip this entry if you don't wanna read about ...welll im kinda sad today so yeah.

So I'm babysitting tonight and I haven't seen these kids in a while because of Jesus Christ Superstar rehearsals. So tonight I'm finally back and I missed them, tonight was fun :) The problem: They are in bed, and every time I'm over here I would call Mike and TJ and talk for a couple hours until the parents got home. Continuing the problem: I'm not gonna call Mike, besides the fact he is at work, but not gonna call him. TJ, I don't know what's up with him, but he hasn't called me or we haven't even talked at work for like 4 days...that's unusal. I know if I call him he won't answer. I hate boys (yes men, do take offense). Ok I'm not really against every y-chromosomal species, but just two of them at the moment. I know I'll be over it tomorrow.

So I graduated. And I talked to my boss' boss today (she is awesome, just like my boss, except more intimidating), and we discussed my raise :) Now I know why I stayed around.

Now happiness:

Yesterday at work was AWESOME!! My first graders were actually pretty hyper and crazy, but I sent all of them out to the playground with the other groups and I stayed in with three doing homework. One of them knew how to regroup, but didn't actually understand what adding '1' to the tens column actually does. So I explained it the way one of the Kindergarten teachers at that school would do. And she got it. Keep in mind this is the girl who's parents don't speak English and she doesn't get any support at home. Most staff members don't like her because she is annoying and hyper, but she has done really well the past couple weeks. She won't remember the concept, but the fact that she did understand it once, she can do it over and over again. Life is good.

I'm really excited for this summer. Apartment, kidnapping bffs to help me move, moving, working, hanging out with ppl before I leave...life really isn't that bad (as long as I don't think to much).

Yay life. TJ graduated high school today and the reality check of every1 leaving is starting to get to me. I am so proud of him and it's been like 4 years we've been bffs...but yeah. He's awesome <3

So yeah...I hate thinking about him (not TJ) all the time, I hate how originally we were thinking about reanalyzing us next year. Fuck no. After how miserable I am right now, I won't forget this and I'm not taking the chance again.

I have gotten a lot done around the house and am starting to hang out with ppl more which is a good distraction but at the same time I'm just kidding myself and forcing myself not to think about it. Ugh I hate complicatedness of life.

Seniors, congrats, everyone else, I hope life is great. <3

So this week has been one big horrible clump of emotions.

-Finals: I didn't do well in stat, and I know I didn't do well in Physics even though that grade isn't posted yet. Graduation on friday (even if i didn't graduate) was freezing cold and we'll see what happens. I am hopefully meeting with my advisor either today or tomorrow.

-Jesus Christ Superstar: I am glad it is over so I can have my life back but at the same time I miss everyone. Everyone who saw my show even said 'you really look like you are at home when you are on stage'. No shit how long have I been trying to say that? There are an assload of people that are better than me (thank god or the theatre world would be in a horrible state) but considering I haven't done anything for 2 years involving theatre, it felt good.
This was also an amazing cast. Certain things have been rocky for the past few months and Wednesday night I had a massive mental breakdown after the show and majority of the cast was right there making sure I was alright. It was kinda embarressing but I mean I couldn't have asked for a better support system. I know I can talk to them about it and whenever I thought of something and needed to vent, they would just listen, and I can't even put into words how amazing it was. thanks to all of them.

There is a summary. This is going to be a rough summer, but things can only get better with time I guess.

hey all. so I'm going crazy. I got my cap and gown today, and granted I can pass statistics, I get to wear it. we'll see what happens.

So I am in Jesus Christ Superstar at my neighbor's church. Small but good show. Thurs/fri/sat may 15, 16, 17. 8 pm. Let me know if you want more details :)

Again, I'm gonna try to stay positive becayse I need it.

-I hung out with Lauren a lot this weekend and it was fun.
-I got a free mini facial from my voice teacher
-I saw Company and saw Josh and Corey and Elana and Zach and Michelle and life was pretty good.
-Michelle and I went to Applebee's (but they didn't have f'ing root beer floats...wtf)
-I had rita's yesterday
-I finished my science homework so I can see my teacher for help today
-I am working on my kid lit homework and getting a lot done
-I am not letting myself go to the o's game on thurs if I am not compeltely caught up on homework (therefore there is no chance in going)
-I actually bought a skirt yesterday (casual, I need to look nicer when I do volunteer hours)
-I did a lot of stretches for physical therapy yesterday (not enough, but more than I usually would have).
-Tomorrow is tax day and dunkin donuts has a deal where you buy a coffee and get a free donut (so I will treat myself and get donuts for when I babysit tomorrow morning :) Perfect!
-I am getting the oil changed today in my car, and my mom and I worked out the whole car deal for today and tomorrow.

Can't really think of anything else, but even though I'm really tired, life is good.

So yeah I need to be more positive so I'm justmentioning most positive things.
-I turned in a geography paper last night that was late (I talked to my teacher and got an extension)
-I am meeting with my math group to work on our project, and we are actually working really well together and not falling behind
-I am trying to meet with teachers to not only get more brownie points, but hopefully actually help me learn something in the end
-I am putting more time into school work again
-I did insanely well on my children's literature presentation yesterday
-I get to see Josh's show on friday and will hopefully hang out with michelle after
-I'm having a homework date with Lauren tomorrow night
-I have a dance rehearsal tonight...which is actually not good, but rehearsals are still fun
-I am starting physical therapy again (bad part), but I have my old therapist since her new practice takes my insurance (insanely good part)
-I got 8 hours of sleep last night
-I am actually in a better mood after writing this

Have a good week ppl :)

I doubt I'll get many questions but go ahead and ask ananymously or not...as sara said, just keep me away from hw :)